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Sun, 17 May 2009 15:24:05 GMT

Um wow. It's been a while. Can't believe I've survived this long with my Xanga *hugs*. I've had so much going on it's crazy. Only 2 1/4 days until I'm away from my evil Spanish teacher and on to summer, where I'm not going to do a thing but sleep and hang out with Miranda and Tyne (unless I get a job of course). I got my license and I'm driving with Tyne mostly but I'm just glad I can drive without a parent now. Home life hasn't been that great, but I've gained a lot of friends. I've been asked to have sex at Wal-mart, danced in the Commons, learned how to say "your mother is in my pants" in Spanish, joined the National Honors Society, got close to killing someone, and have successfully stayed single. I'm pretty darn happy and I hope everyone has been doing well too.

Gonna go. Peace and love and all that stuff.

-Jacy

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Saturday, February 07, 2009

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 18:54:01 GMT

Ah, tis February everyone. A week from the big V-day. I despise Valentine's Day. #1, I have never had a "valentine" before, so all I get to do is watch people make out all day. #2, I think that you should treat each other the way you treat your SO on Valentine's Day all year long, not just save it all for one particular day (if that makes any sense whatsoever).

There have been so many things running through my mind. I just hope I can straighten everything out.

Well, off I go to prance in the beautiful sunlight. Take care.

Peace and love and all that stuff,

Miss Jacy

An End of an Error

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 04:02:07 GMT

Tomorrow is going to be one of the most historic days in history: a black man is officially going to become the president of the United States. I am so excited and relieved at the same time. From the time the primaries began, I found Obama's views relating a lot to my own, and his economic plans were so appealing and revolutionary compared to any other candidate. The speeches he gave were very uplifting and gave me hope about my future and the future my country. I am going to be staring at my television all day tomorrow watching the inaguration, so if you need me, you'll know where I'll be ;)

Tomorrow is also a very special day for a different reason: Bush's last official day in office. He has put the economy in such debt and in such pain that it will take years upon years to get out of this crisis. How our country could elect such an idiot into presidency, I have no clue. We will hopefully be rid of him forever after tomorrow and we can be relieved of some of the stress in our everyday lives. It is a hard fact in life, having to wake up every morning and wonder, "What has that crazy s.o.b. done today?" Without him in office, maybe I can actually afford a car. Maybe I can afford to go to college and get a decent education. Maybe the use of fossil fuels will be eliminated completely, helping the air and environment grow out of its current situation. Maybe one day my children will live a life with more possibilities and more aspiration than I could even dream of. And maybe, just maybe, one day I could live in the house with the white picket fence, children running and laughing along with my husband and I. Maybe one of these days, I could afford to "live the American dream".

for the poetry lovers of the world...

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 20:51:22 GMT

so i wrote a couple of things the other night. they might be good, they might be shizz. i truly don't know atm. tell me the good, bad and ugly. whether i should bring these to the light of day or just keep them hidden within my notebook. i have two. here is the first:

Rain cascades down the windows leaving trails of what used to be.

Twilight breaks upon your stardust eyes.

The welcoming sky shows the wet murmur within its beating heart.

Covers revealed, forbidden footsteps are taken.

Your silent screams hopeful to stop the pain, but no longer.

Such a regretful decision, eyes sewn shut to the world.

Our mind, our thighs both meet.

Mysteries remain mysteries dying to whisper their sacred lullabys.

Sandpaper tongues make a beautiful melody in this silenced land.

Stitches once sewn for eternity begin to slowly unravel.

Sight such a blessing but to you a foreign curse.

Your hands in mine, once stained by the past now washed clean by love.

It's just the rain baby, just the rain.

so yea. that's the first. and here's the second one for all you rhyme-lovers out there:

I'll take you in and hold on tight.

Skeletons crawl from the closet tonight.

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you.

Ice in my veins and in yours too.

Speed it up, I'm walking on glass.

Damn the future, damn the past.

Smack me, hit me, it's all the same.

I never lived before you came.

Hold my hand down that little white road.

Give me your love before you go.

Come back to me, you're my hero, my life

I'll be your heroine, like husband and wife.

Drink in your skin, inhale your words.

Crack a smile baby, let's act like birds.

Fly so far no one knows our names.

I'm sorry for the memories that cause you pain.

So come back to bed, I'll make you forget.

Leave your decisions, there's no time left.

Let's both get lost just one last time.

I fall in your arms and you're in mine.

My eyes crank closed, still staying true.

I'm totally and utterly addicted to you.

voila. comment and tell me what you truly think.

peace and love and all that stuff,

miss jacy

Wow

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 04:15:45 GMT

It's been a heck of a looooooong time since I got on here. Everything's been so crazy. I don't even know where to begin. Guess I'll just have to start somewhere.

Well, I am beginning to write poetry again. I'm proud of myself for that. I may post some of my stuff on here at a later date. And I am reading again too. I have been reading the autobiography of Anthony Kiedis, the lead singer of Red Hot Chili Peppers. It's very interesting and I love it so far :)

But what overcomes all is there has been a period of growth and understanding in this first semester of my sophomore year. I have found what type of person I want be and who I never want to relate to whatsoever. I have found what I want out of love instead of going by guidelines and thoughts of others. My heart has been broken and hurt but I have learned you can do anything but give up hope. I have opened my heart and mind to people and that's a beautiful thing sometimes. I know that might not sound like much to anyone, but it means a lot to me.

Ah yes, and I finished Spanish I without blowing my brains out *applause*. Hung out with my friends Miranda, Natalie, Jessica, Brandon, Phillip, and of course, Tyne. They help me get through pretty much anything :) Lived through the headaches and hangovers of Christmas and New Years. Tuesday I start school once again *sigh* i've been dreading it immensely. But hopefully it will go well :)

well i'm gonna go dance with myself. idk. lol. but yea.

peace and love and all that stuff,

Miss Jacy

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 12:53:10 GMT

TADA! Hey guys. I can't believe it's been a month since I last posted. A lot has been going on and I just plain forgot. If you would like to talk to me more frequently, my myspace is myspace.com/ilovethatoldrockandroll.

Well, I am in a volunteering program at the library now. I work in the children's section, and I just straighten up the books (last week I had to put the hardy boys series AND the nancy drew series in order), read to kids if they want, and help them with games on the computers. I love watching the kids get so excited over books. Books are a big part in my life, and seeing that love in younger kids also is just inspirational.

I also have glasses now. Apparently, I'm nearsighted. So I got glasses yesterday and I think I can pull these off ;]

And I ran for homecoming. That didn't go so well. But they way I see it, it just wasn't my year for it. My sister won it her junior year, so maybe that's my year too. :)

And I really miss this one guy *issa*. I've been up since 8:30 waiting for him to get online. How big of a nerd am I? hehe.

Anyways I'm gonna go. I smell breakfast

Peace and love and all that stuff,

Miss Jacy

25 Randoms <3

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:32:06 GMT

1. I wish someone would send me flowers. I haven't ever gotten any b4.

2. I wish I kept a more "updated" diary. This is the closest thing I have.

3. I wish I could focus more on science. But with a teacher like mine, it's hard.

4. I wish that I had "perfect" hair. Mine's always fuzzy and uncompromising.

5. I wish that I could do more things than I am allowed.

6. I wish that I could teleport. That would have been useful quite a few times.

7. I wish I could be more organized. My room looks like WW3 just took place.

8. I wish that my books were real. Well, only a couple. :)

9. I wish that I could leave right now and go to Asheville. I feel home there.

10. I wish that I could sew. I can, it just looks like something my 5 year old cousin could do.

11. I wish that I could meet someone that wouldn't leave.

12. I wish that I could quit thinking about stuff as much. I'm always overanalyzing things.

13. I wish thirteen wasn't an unlucky number. I think it's quite cool :)

14. I wish I wrote more. I feel like I am losing that part of me, which isn't good at all.

15. I wish I could draw. Don't get me wrong, I love my stick people, but they get old after a while.

16. I wish I could sit and talk to Bill Clinton or Obama. He's my hero <3 hehe.

17. I wish that school was held outside part of the day. I hate being stuck indoors all day.

18. I wish that I could go to the prom this year. Even though I'm just a sophomore *blushes*

19. I wish that I could act for a living. Idk if I am good enough, but it just seems like a cool job.

20. I wish that I could give some money back to my parents to pay them back for everything they've done for me.

21. I wish that I could pay my sister's way through college. She works so hard and she deserves it.

22. I wish that I could meet somebody new. Now that I'm a sophomore, it's like I know everyone. Nothing different.

23. I wish I could do something to change the world.

24. I wish I was fluent in French and Spanish.

25. I wish that I could hang out with some certain famous people for a while..

Don't Ya Know I'm Fine Tonight?

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:08:07 GMT

Damn it's been a while :P. Well, maybe not too long of a while, but you get my meaning. As of rite now, I have don't have any guys. It's a very long story, but I think that may be for the better. But I'm not quite sure yet. Oh well, I'll guess we'll see.

And my life has been crazy. My sister just started college and she is doing great :) I'm proud of her. And I also have been busy with my classes, like Spanish and Biology. They're killers man. I think I can survive tho =)

I've had a good year so far tho. I've made new friends, which is probably a little healthier for me, and I can't seem to get rid of some of my older ones. Right now I'm just trying to find my place in the school. I just hope everything will turn out alright.

Yea, Breaking Dawn is the shizznizz for anybody that didn't know. ;) Haven't finished it just yet, but yea *hugs book* it makes me happy <3

I Feel Stupid and Contagious

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 23:14:48 GMT

So, life has mellowed out a bit. I am single *woohoo* and I'm falling hard for this kid. He makes me smile so big =] I can't be with him tho, so it's really hard to actually think of him as "dating" material. But I can't stop thinking about him. It's killing me man :/

But I have also gotten a few guys that I think may like me at school. They are really good guys, and probably would be great boyfriends, but I just don't see them like that. It would just be kind of awkward.

You know, I've never had this problem before. Picking between guys. Used to, I was lucky to have one at all. Now, poof, they realize I'm actually there. I don't know. I just really like internet guy. But am I too young to have a internet bf? He is willing to move down here next fall. I just don't know. We just relate in so many ways it's not even funny. And yet again, he makes me smile and I really really like him. Like no one else. But it's just so hard not being able to see him. I'm one of those young-romantic types, but I don't think I could be willing to commit myself to someone forever at this age. It just doesn't work.

And also, I'm reading "Breaking Dawn". *sigh* best book ever hunn.

Comment me and I'll <3 u forever.

-Jacy

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 02:51:05 GMT

so guess what? hey i'm back.

again.

and i'm sry it's taking me for flipping ever to write these things. my computer is a piece of crap.

but a lot has been going on lately.

i have a boyfriend, but i dont know how it's going exactly.

my friend *his cousin* says that all he wants from me is sex and i'm just not into that.

maybe it's stupid, or retarded, or what have u.

but i am 15. i have so much more to deal with than sex.

it's not with the fact that i can't trust him, because I can.

but i dont believe i could even trust myself with a decision like that just yet.

i want everything to feel right, and it just doesnt.

i don't even know if that's what HE thinks, because the friend has lied to me before.

and if it is, then i'm just going to get rid of him and find someone better.

whenever i'm with him, i feel like i'm on cloud nine or something.

i like being held and i like kissing him and hugging him, but i don't want to go further than that.

i really care for him. but i just don't want to go that far yet. and i won't.

well i'm gonna go. will talk later.

-jacy